Look after you by The Fray was on repeat mode on my itunes and I felt the lyrics somehow connects with me, "If I dont say this now, I will surely break as I'm leaving the one I wanna take..." but to face it, how many of us can truly let the one we love go? so the cliches say, let the person go if you really love them but the fact is that, it takes hell loads to let go and when you say your happiness lies in the other party being happy, but in reality you're sad. Love can be magic, but that magic may be just an illusion and sadly, I'm a victim of it and think about it, if we all could choose who we fell in love with, it wouldn't be fun at all because most of the time we end up falling for the one we'd never thought of, you could even fall for a married person, someone much older/younger etc. it's as if there's no barriers but when you look further, there's so many obstacles you've to overcome. Attraction between two people despite age differences is normal however such attractions are seldom expressed in real life. Our more general attitude towards love is that our feelings are all that is going on. And so to us the totality of love is what we feel but to really love someone requires commitment, fidelity and vulnerability. I imagine love to be incompleteness in absence and I finally know the pain of too much tenderness and to be wounded by your own understanding of love.

I return home at eventide with gratitude, and then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in my heart.